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Twitter is for Losers Like Me

January 21, 2009

I love telling people that they can follow me on twitter – on twitter I’m known as apt1d.

I love checking every couple of minutes to see if anyone new is following. I’m desperate for replies or direct messages. I seek the approval of hundreds of strangers who are no more talented than I am . I have no financial reward in store for the recognition I crave. I have nothing to gain by having 10,000 followers, but I am obsessed with chasing that goal.

I write blog posts about things I find interesting, but I allow the quality of my content to be determined by the amount of hits it gets. I try to adapt my posts to solicit comments. I am in need of web 2.0 attention.

It’s all a load of bupkiss isn’t it? What’s the point of all this connecting and linking? How much can I learn from 140 characters? Is anyone showing who they really are, or is everyone simply a facade?

I’ll continue on Twitter as I always have, but I don’t know why. I’ll continue posting to my blog, but only because I like writing. I hope I can get over this addiction; I hope we all do.


Reflecting on the Hudson River Plane Crash

January 15, 2009

I’m going to be very self-centered for just a minute. Please bear with me.

Here I am sitting in my office just two blocksĀ  from the Empire State Building. Less than two miles away, a plane crash landed into the Hudson River one hour ago. I had no idea that it happened. I didn’t know anything until I got a call from my Mom in MD.

If that plane had only been off-course just a little bit, I could have been right in its path. I heard sirens all afternoon around my office, but I had no clue what they were for until I got the call.

How is it possible for something so colossal to happen so close to me without me even noticing? I’m sitting here at my computer trying to find live shots of something that is only a couple of blocks away.

I feel like this is supposed to change my life in some way, but I don’t think it will. Would it have been different if 100 people had died? I don’t know.

We’ll see what happens, but I have a hard time just moving on from this and saying “it can only happen in New York.”

Update: Walking through the streets of Manhattan this evening was surreal. How was it possible that an airbus 32o was floating in the river, and you couldn’t tell anything was wrong?

Is it a sign of strength that this city can withstand so much? No. It’s a sign that this city has no heart. Nobody is phased by disaster. Nobody stops to help someone out. Nobody smiles or says hello.

It’s sad.

Amtrak Diner Car Mind Dump 12/15/2008

January 14, 2009

One hundred thousand people can die, and people will ignore it. War is something that happens to countries – not people. The bullshit will continue spreading until someone steps forward to stop it. Love and pease should not be cliche’s that are mocked and disregarded. The downfall of all humanity will come at the hands of those who don’t appreciate humanity. How much suffering will it take? How much greed can exist? Who needs to steal 50 billion dollars? People need to understand one another. People need to listen to one another. People need to tolerate and respect one another, even if it seems that their differences are significant. Dialogue. Discussion. Collaboration. Demonstrations of love and kindness.